Hi guys! I’m back with another book review! This time I had finished reading the book “Such a Rush” by Jennifer Echols. To be honest, I had finished this book a while ago (last week that is) but I didn’t have the time to type up something about it. So, forgive me if there are some things that aren’t quite clearly mentioned within this review/rant.
Yes, you saw that right – a rant. Which means…
SPOILER ALERT!!! And there is LOTS OF THEM!
Cover = nice looking if you see it on a shelf across the room. Close-up: not the same effect I realised
Hey guys!! Today’s question may have a really sad and disappointing answer…
I am actually afraid of heights, but that’s about it. I’ve had a fear of heights ever since I was young, and I haven’t been able to get over it since. But apart from that, there really isn’t much that I am afraid of in a ‘common’ sense.
Apart from this. Below I have quoted from Cry (Cryaotic), a fellow YouTuber who I adore and admire. He is absolutely inspiring, and I just wanted to quote a Tumblr post he wrote a couple of weeks ago.
What am I afraid of?
That’s a common question I have heard throughout my days. What truly scares me?
This is what scares me.
Being startled awake in the middle of the night by the howls of your dogs. Their barks incessant and almost endless as you lay there in your bed, eyes wide and heart racing. The barking continues on for a time more until it lowers to a steady, but still prominent growl as you are left there wondering. You drift asleep, and it soon happens again. Glass shatters. The dogs are now silent. Footsteps.
Walking past the open door to your child’s or little sibling’s room as you are on your way to grab a drink or maybe go watch television. They are sleeping so you go in to turn off their TV and you notice their little chest isn’t rising and falling anymore. They’re stiff, cold, and lifeless.
Leaving your child in the care of a trusted babysitter. Going out to dinner and a movie with the significant other but finding the movie a bore and returning early. Opening the door to your home to find the man living out his sick, demented fantasies at the cost of your child’s mental and physical turmoil.
Getting into your vehicle, all is fine and well, you drive to work and you take a turn around a corner with too much overgrowth blocking your view. Thud. Scream. Getting out of your car you find a mother screaming in a shrill as she holds her now limp, crushed child.
Living a life of normality, things come and go. Suddenly one things goes south, more follow, and you find yourself in a great amount of debt. Your once ‘always there’ friends curiously gone as you now find yourself homeless on the side of the road. People walking past you, ignoring your existence and treating you as sub-human, a blemish of society. Unworthy of compassion. Left to strive to get back into society only to fail again and again, destined to wither away in the end on a cold winter night under a bridge. The years pass and you’re forgotten, no family or friends, just a human who lived, and a human who died.
Driving with your family to a concert, everyone’s cheering, smiling, happy. Your sister and brother in the backseat, your mother to your left, you in the front looking at the window as you cross a 4-way intersection. Headlights. Crash. Blackness. You wake up to find yourself in a hospital bed, you don’t know if you can move your body anymore. You soon learn your siblings didn’t make it, your mother is scarred, battered and soon becomes numb from painkillers and anti-depressants. Your family shattered.
You’re a child, growing up with a single mother who has been struggling to survive. You’re still young and know that because of this your mother fails to listen as you tell her her new boyfriend isn’t the man she thinks he is. The abuse begins. Unexplained bruises soon becoming highlighted as more join them. Your mother ignoring you still as she falls in deep with hard drugs her new boyfriend forced upon her, becoming but a shell of her former self just to feel accepted and ‘love’ from her new companion, forgetting all about you.
I’m afraid of reality. Not monsters. Not ghosts. Not impossibilities. I am afraid of the world in all of its honest terrors.
There is a lot of real horror in the world. The human mind being one of the scariest things on this green earth. Capable of the greatest things, and the darkest of any sins anyone’s god may speak of.
It’s nice to let go and feel a sense of fear from fictitious monsters and tales, but true moments of dread are all too common in our everyday lives.
We’re just lucky some of us haven’t had to live with them yet.
And if you have, I am so, so sorry.
This explains the common fears that have haunted my dreams for years. After losing my father 3 years ago, reality has haunted me with its ‘truths’ – that events such as the ones mentioned above happen to anyone, anywhere. The “honest terrors” that reality brings is frightening to imagine.
These are my fears. What are yours? If you want to share, leave a comment down below and let me know what you are afraid of.
The choice is yours.
It’s true. This is what “fears” truly are.
Thanks for reading guys, and I’ll talk to you all very soon~~
Day 23: What is one thing that you are excited about?
Hey guys and welcome back to day 23! Another 7 days to go before I complete this challenge!!! Pumped man, real pumped!!
So, one thing that you are excited about. One thing that I can say always excites me is when Cry (Cryaotic) releases a new video. Regardless of what the content is, how long it is, I’m always excited to see a video in my subscriptions page. Recently, Cry has been playing “The Last Of Us”, a video game which I have been DYING to play. However, I enjoy watching others play it more than just playing it myself (is that weird? I hope not ><)
Thank you for being part of my life Cry, thank you ❤
I think it’s just the whole “what is next?” thought that travels through my head on a day-to-day basis. Also, I think that many can relate to me also whether it is a daily email, or a video or even a message from a significant other. That thought of “what will tomorrow bring me?” really gets me going, excites me and keeps my engines running.
Cry has now become part of my life, a significant part of the day like eating or studying. It’s something that I must watch before going to bed, and something that I wake up to every morning. It gets me excited for the day to come. I am so grateful for having him in my life, and I know that many can understand this. He may not know of my individual existence, and likewise I don’t know much about him either, but his personality, his love and passion for video games and his undying attentiveness for his fans is truly inspiring.
So thank you Cry, for being there when I was depressed, and sick of living. Although I wasn’t there for you at the beginning, I am here now, and forever always. Now I feel that everyday is worth-living for, and I appreciate it. Thank you for teaching me that life has its ups and downs, and I am grateful for the excitement you give me to live another day.
Okay, that’s all for me today. I’ll probably do a separate post about Cry in the coming future once the time comes. Thanks for reading guys and see you all soon~~
Day 21: List 5 words or phrases that make you laugh.
Hi guys!! Today’s question has definitely left me in a pickle…what do I say? A LOT of things make me laugh. Usually, it isn’t the word/phrase but actually HOW the word/phrase is spoken.
For example, the sound ‘meh’. If someone does the sound while shrugging their shoulders, I will chuckle regardless of whether or not I know them. So hopefully, I answer this question right :S
1. “Moist”. All ladies out there will understand the pain that I have when I hear this word. I would wish that this word be taken out of our vocabulary forever. But now if I hear it on, for example “Masterchef” to describe like a cake or something, I would laugh out loud and have my family just look upon me as if I am mental. Awkward…
2. “Fuck this shit!”. This comes from PewdiePie, a YouTuber/video gamer on YouTube. From a video montage, I played this part NONSTOP! Now, whenever I can’t be bothered to do something, I say this to myself (that’s normal right?!) and I chuckle to myself…creepy… Anyway, here is a link to the montage. Check it out for yourself; it pops out at around 40 seconds into the video however, check out the whole thing because it is SUPER SPECIAL AWESOME!! hehe http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rc1XYAJCZ80
3. “Screw this!” I say this all the time, and it definitely lightens the mood for some people. Once I accidentally said it out loud and I literally started cracking up laughing. NONSTOP!
4. “Oh. My. Gawd.” The way ‘this is spoken is by “Cryaotic”, another gamer on YouTube. I absolutely adore him, and his voice. His personality is to die for. He has been one of my most recent subscriptions on YouTube and now has forever ruined my life. Click on this link and you will understand what I mean. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=agKaMf4902g
5. “CHARGE, BITCH!” Once again, a reference to Cryaotic’s video above. Please check it out. You will totally understand what I mean. I cracked up laughing, and still do. XD
What I would GIVE to do that 🙂
How I felt so long ago before I discovered Cry. Now, I feel as if my life could be somewhat complete. Even though I don’t post these “Let’s Play” videos, this Blog is of the same equivalence to me.
This is definitely a very disappointing post. Trust me, I am very disappointed with myself here. If you don’t know me in person you probably won’t get the many references here. I’ve tried to link to the many videos that I get these phrases from but still…yeah I’m going to call it a night. Too tired and sleepy to keep going with this post cause this has just taken too long.
Day 4: Who or what can’t you live without? Explain why.
Hello~~~ Welcome back to day no. 4! Today’s challenge is a really hard one. I have a couple of things/people who mean the world to me but it’s just so hard to cram it all down to one thing (lol duh?) so, I’m going to be really naughty and kinda make a list cause it is just too much torture to try and answer this question with only one answer.
Because, obviously, not everything is black and white, right?
So, LET’S GET STARTED!!!!
1. My lovely family
(Not showing a photo of them here – personal reasons, sorry!)
This must be a given. Of course, without them, I wouldn’t be the person that I am today. My beautiful, loving and caring family have always been there for me when I ever need support. I mean, what else could you wish for?
My father passed away in 2010 when I was only 15 years old. I guess this age is a really tough time because I’m old enough to remember, but just not old enough to forget. And I don’t mean that I want to forget it’s just…there are just moments that I wish I could but yet can’t. Since his passing, I’ve come to realised how much my family truly means to me, and I have lived on from that time since in this manner.
I truly believed at the time that I couldn’t live without him. He was my own blood-related father – the one who gave me my life today. I will go on never forgetting that, and I am truly, truly grateful to him for all he has done for my life up until that time period. Ahhh geez, my keyboard is becoming soaked…give me a sec while I wipe it up with my sleeve (gross, I know).
And so, thank you to my wonderful family and caring father who was there when he could be. Never could I live without them, and if I couldn’t I’d rather go with them then live a day without.
2. Super Junior
Ahhhh, my oppas…<3
I have been a E.L.F ever since 2009 and rather than consider myself a fan, I feel as if I’m part of an extended family which stretches all across the globe and back. We as a community really are amazing, I believe. Any person who is able to send this amount of love to someone/some people who they may have never seen before in real life, I think, are capable of anything. I myself have never seen Super Junior live before my eyes. We Australians had a chance before last year, but the concert got cancelled almost a fortnight prior.
Many of us were devastated (as we should be!) but I took a more positive outlook and told myself that maybe it just wasn’t the right moment yet. As the dedicated fans we are, we will continue to wait for them all and if I really, really become too impatient then, once I am capable, I’ll go out and find them myself (LOL)
All of them have given my life more shine, more warmth and more laughter. As you already know, I’ve been through a couple of rough patches in my life and it was through Super Junior that I became someone who began to smile and appreciate the life that I have now. I almost believe that they were a gift from my father himself, as real living guardian angels who were capable of making a bad day, a good one instead. And so, they are another aspect of my life that I can’t possibly live without.
3. Youtube, Facebook, WordPress blah, blah, blah, yadda yadda (LOL)
Social media…it truly is a matter of life and death LOL
Okay, before you all misunderstand, what I really mean by this title is the fact that through these sites (I guess you could call them social-media…) that I had discovered friends and people who enjoy stuff that I love! Through Facebook, I was able to find friends who I had lost contact with for years and now, we act as if we had spent our whole entire lives together, side by side. Through YouTube, I discovered Super Junior, Kpop, Cryaotic, Clothesencounters and all of these different cultures who had so much to share in order for me to discover. Through WordPress, I was able to read, read and just READ on and on about some amazing people who have pretty amazing lives in comparison to mine. And I enjoyed doing that, a lot.
But especially through YouTube, I was able to discover so many people with passions of their own, and just wanted to share with everyone what they loved doing whether this was fashion, beauty, gaming, pop culture, music etc. I just loved watching them, and I honestly spend HOURS every day watching them. I always anticipate what I could find in my subscription box every morning. Some I must watch right then and there; others are always on my ‘watch later’ playlist. My love for YouTube will probably never die… I believe, eventually, that I will die before it will ><
So, this is probably a pretty good summary of what I can’t live without at this moment in time. There are plenty more but then the list will just never stop. Anyway, I hope you all enjoyed this, and got to understand my tastes/life/likings just a tad bit more. As always, hope to talk to you all very soon~~
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