Hey guys!! I am so sorry that I haven’t been doing anything over the past wen or so on this blog. The 30 day challenge absolutely drained it all out of me but I promise, more will come in the future on this blog. I’m currently watching a billion animes at once, and I can’t wait to share with you everything about them.
However, today I will be discussing to you all about the most recent book that I have finished reading called “Forbidden” by Tabitha Suzuma. A couple of days ago during the 30 day challenge, I had talked about this book briefly, but now I am back and ready to share with you all my thoughts on the book.
So, here goes!! (By the way, I’m typing this on my iPod so if there are any mistakes in grammar and/or spelling please forgive me ><)
Also note!! This review will contain spoilers so if you are intending to read this book then please stop reading any further and exit this post IMMEDIATELY!! Just to warn you hehe
Hey guys!! Today’s question may have a really sad and disappointing answer…
I am actually afraid of heights, but that’s about it. I’ve had a fear of heights ever since I was young, and I haven’t been able to get over it since. But apart from that, there really isn’t much that I am afraid of in a ‘common’ sense.
Apart from this. Below I have quoted from Cry (Cryaotic), a fellow YouTuber who I adore and admire. He is absolutely inspiring, and I just wanted to quote a Tumblr post he wrote a couple of weeks ago.
What am I afraid of?
That’s a common question I have heard throughout my days. What truly scares me?
This is what scares me.
Being startled awake in the middle of the night by the howls of your dogs. Their barks incessant and almost endless as you lay there in your bed, eyes wide and heart racing. The barking continues on for a time more until it lowers to a steady, but still prominent growl as you are left there wondering. You drift asleep, and it soon happens again. Glass shatters. The dogs are now silent. Footsteps.
Walking past the open door to your child’s or little sibling’s room as you are on your way to grab a drink or maybe go watch television. They are sleeping so you go in to turn off their TV and you notice their little chest isn’t rising and falling anymore. They’re stiff, cold, and lifeless.
Leaving your child in the care of a trusted babysitter. Going out to dinner and a movie with the significant other but finding the movie a bore and returning early. Opening the door to your home to find the man living out his sick, demented fantasies at the cost of your child’s mental and physical turmoil.
Getting into your vehicle, all is fine and well, you drive to work and you take a turn around a corner with too much overgrowth blocking your view. Thud. Scream. Getting out of your car you find a mother screaming in a shrill as she holds her now limp, crushed child.
Living a life of normality, things come and go. Suddenly one things goes south, more follow, and you find yourself in a great amount of debt. Your once ‘always there’ friends curiously gone as you now find yourself homeless on the side of the road. People walking past you, ignoring your existence and treating you as sub-human, a blemish of society. Unworthy of compassion. Left to strive to get back into society only to fail again and again, destined to wither away in the end on a cold winter night under a bridge. The years pass and you’re forgotten, no family or friends, just a human who lived, and a human who died.
Driving with your family to a concert, everyone’s cheering, smiling, happy. Your sister and brother in the backseat, your mother to your left, you in the front looking at the window as you cross a 4-way intersection. Headlights. Crash. Blackness. You wake up to find yourself in a hospital bed, you don’t know if you can move your body anymore. You soon learn your siblings didn’t make it, your mother is scarred, battered and soon becomes numb from painkillers and anti-depressants. Your family shattered.
You’re a child, growing up with a single mother who has been struggling to survive. You’re still young and know that because of this your mother fails to listen as you tell her her new boyfriend isn’t the man she thinks he is. The abuse begins. Unexplained bruises soon becoming highlighted as more join them. Your mother ignoring you still as she falls in deep with hard drugs her new boyfriend forced upon her, becoming but a shell of her former self just to feel accepted and ‘love’ from her new companion, forgetting all about you.
I’m afraid of reality. Not monsters. Not ghosts. Not impossibilities. I am afraid of the world in all of its honest terrors.
There is a lot of real horror in the world. The human mind being one of the scariest things on this green earth. Capable of the greatest things, and the darkest of any sins anyone’s god may speak of.
It’s nice to let go and feel a sense of fear from fictitious monsters and tales, but true moments of dread are all too common in our everyday lives.
We’re just lucky some of us haven’t had to live with them yet.
And if you have, I am so, so sorry.
This explains the common fears that have haunted my dreams for years. After losing my father 3 years ago, reality has haunted me with its ‘truths’ – that events such as the ones mentioned above happen to anyone, anywhere. The “honest terrors” that reality brings is frightening to imagine.
These are my fears. What are yours? If you want to share, leave a comment down below and let me know what you are afraid of.
The choice is yours.
It’s true. This is what “fears” truly are.
Thanks for reading guys, and I’ll talk to you all very soon~~
Day 23: What is one thing that you are excited about?
Hey guys and welcome back to day 23! Another 7 days to go before I complete this challenge!!! Pumped man, real pumped!!
So, one thing that you are excited about. One thing that I can say always excites me is when Cry (Cryaotic) releases a new video. Regardless of what the content is, how long it is, I’m always excited to see a video in my subscriptions page. Recently, Cry has been playing “The Last Of Us”, a video game which I have been DYING to play. However, I enjoy watching others play it more than just playing it myself (is that weird? I hope not ><)
Thank you for being part of my life Cry, thank you ❤
I think it’s just the whole “what is next?” thought that travels through my head on a day-to-day basis. Also, I think that many can relate to me also whether it is a daily email, or a video or even a message from a significant other. That thought of “what will tomorrow bring me?” really gets me going, excites me and keeps my engines running.
Cry has now become part of my life, a significant part of the day like eating or studying. It’s something that I must watch before going to bed, and something that I wake up to every morning. It gets me excited for the day to come. I am so grateful for having him in my life, and I know that many can understand this. He may not know of my individual existence, and likewise I don’t know much about him either, but his personality, his love and passion for video games and his undying attentiveness for his fans is truly inspiring.
So thank you Cry, for being there when I was depressed, and sick of living. Although I wasn’t there for you at the beginning, I am here now, and forever always. Now I feel that everyday is worth-living for, and I appreciate it. Thank you for teaching me that life has its ups and downs, and I am grateful for the excitement you give me to live another day.
Okay, that’s all for me today. I’ll probably do a separate post about Cry in the coming future once the time comes. Thanks for reading guys and see you all soon~~
Day 21: List 5 words or phrases that make you laugh.
Hi guys!! Today’s question has definitely left me in a pickle…what do I say? A LOT of things make me laugh. Usually, it isn’t the word/phrase but actually HOW the word/phrase is spoken.
For example, the sound ‘meh’. If someone does the sound while shrugging their shoulders, I will chuckle regardless of whether or not I know them. So hopefully, I answer this question right :S
1. “Moist”. All ladies out there will understand the pain that I have when I hear this word. I would wish that this word be taken out of our vocabulary forever. But now if I hear it on, for example “Masterchef” to describe like a cake or something, I would laugh out loud and have my family just look upon me as if I am mental. Awkward…
2. “Fuck this shit!”. This comes from PewdiePie, a YouTuber/video gamer on YouTube. From a video montage, I played this part NONSTOP! Now, whenever I can’t be bothered to do something, I say this to myself (that’s normal right?!) and I chuckle to myself…creepy… Anyway, here is a link to the montage. Check it out for yourself; it pops out at around 40 seconds into the video however, check out the whole thing because it is SUPER SPECIAL AWESOME!! hehe http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rc1XYAJCZ80
3. “Screw this!” I say this all the time, and it definitely lightens the mood for some people. Once I accidentally said it out loud and I literally started cracking up laughing. NONSTOP!
4. “Oh. My. Gawd.” The way ‘this is spoken is by “Cryaotic”, another gamer on YouTube. I absolutely adore him, and his voice. His personality is to die for. He has been one of my most recent subscriptions on YouTube and now has forever ruined my life. Click on this link and you will understand what I mean. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=agKaMf4902g
5. “CHARGE, BITCH!” Once again, a reference to Cryaotic’s video above. Please check it out. You will totally understand what I mean. I cracked up laughing, and still do. XD
What I would GIVE to do that 🙂
How I felt so long ago before I discovered Cry. Now, I feel as if my life could be somewhat complete. Even though I don’t post these “Let’s Play” videos, this Blog is of the same equivalence to me.
This is definitely a very disappointing post. Trust me, I am very disappointed with myself here. If you don’t know me in person you probably won’t get the many references here. I’ve tried to link to the many videos that I get these phrases from but still…yeah I’m going to call it a night. Too tired and sleepy to keep going with this post cause this has just taken too long.