2017 was a year of change, hardships and adjusting. Through this year, I’ve understood what many describe their first year out of uni to be like: daunting, frightening and just downright nerve-racking. I was always doubtful about it ever happening to me, but it sure hit me hard.
Hey everyone! I hope you all have been well, and I apologise for my lack of contact and activity on the blog. So so much has changed recently, and I’ve been trying to settle in and adapt to the changes.
In general, it’s been a while since I’ve written a post unrelated to reviews or ranting about some ‘minor’ pet peeves I may have with certain drama trends, but today I felt the urge to update the site with a post that encapsulates the current stress and major changes that I have encountered within the span of a couple of months.
Every year, I try to make a personal post around the time of my birthday to re-evaluate myself and reflect on the year as myself in life and not only the Hyunnie known on Asia Reviewer Maniac.
Much like last year, fears and worries still exist for little me, and so this post still presents itself today. If you want to check out what I wrote this time last year, check it out here.
Have you ever sat down for a second and thought to yourself: “Who are my friends?”
If you’re thinking of that question now, who did you think of? Was it the people you saw on a daily basis due to work or school, or was it the ones who you’ve rarely seen since ‘life’ happened, but still chat with on a regular basis?
I hate yet love my job.
Rather, I hate a man who works at my job, and love everything else about it.
You would think “Pfft, leave and find another job if the guy keeps bothering you”.
Sadly enough, this man happens to be my boss, and I want out. Now.
Sorry about that dramatic title everyone, but for those who are in the circle would understand my frustrations, as they mirror many others who work under the same roof as I do.
If you haven’t figured it out by now, this post is going to be quite drastically different from any of my posts. Due to a change in thinking, I have come to the conclusion that I should maintain a constant flow of blog posts, even if it isn’t a review on something; that way, I can avoid doing random hiatuses without notice. So, if rant/thought blog posts ain’t your cup of tea, skip now cause this is a lengthy one.
Huh, where has all of our time flown to? How could it already have been another year already? I swear, I’m gradually losing track of time so quickly; I’m worried that I have the memory of a goldfish at times haha. Anyway, today marks the 4th year since the blog had begun, and I am really proud yet baffled about it.
Looking back at what I had wrote exactly one year ago, I feel that I have failed so much in terms of what I have done for the blog. I have been taking unannounced hiatus, and not been posting the best quality works that I can produce. There was a point in time where I was simply just not wanting to post what I was watching, and just wanted to focus on the watching portion. About that limbo I mentioned last year? I’m still there, and to be honest, the future of this blog is still unclear. Despite how much I want to commit to this blog wholeheartedly and expand it more, I’m still up to this point unsure as to whether I would like to go with it.
However, for the sack of you all, these committed, wonderful and supportive readers who have continuously supported this blog, and left comments or even just gave a glance into what I do, I am still driven to maintain this blog, and try to provide the best possible posts that I can provide. I’m considering of venturing into other areas, such as books or music again as I did in the past. If this sounds good, let me know 😉
Hmm, what have I even been doing over the past year? Since our last birthday, statistically we have been on the rise despite my lack of activity in both views and readers, which is just mind-blowing for me. As I’ve mentioned in the past, no matter how busy or tied down by life in general, this blog still continues to be present in the back of my mind, which I guess indicates how difficult it will ever be for me to even consider letting this go because in the end, I really do enjoy just spewing out my thoughts and feelings on a platform that is mine to own and under my own jurisdiction. I am free, which is something that I truly appreciate when my life is always so structured, must follow certain procedures and cannot just simply be complete in my own way or nature. And so, Asia Reviewer Maniac will certainly continue to stay here for (hopefully) many years to come, with definite improvements in quality in both writing and creativity.
Thank you all so much again for being here with me and this blog. I love you all, thank you all again for just being there and I wish you all a lovely day/night, wherever you are in the world! Asia Reviewer Maniac fighting! Hyunnie fighting!
❤ Hyunnie ^^~
This is going to be a post that is quite different from what I have done in the past. As I use this blog predominantly as a place for expressing my interests that I love sharing with others, I never venture into anything too personal as I sometimes feel that is almost…unnecessary? As in, this blog was created out of the love I had for kpop and dramas, and I had thought that it should stay that way.
But for today, I wanted to kind of share some personal issues I have with myself, and I hope that this post may be of some assistance to others, whatever your struggles or problems may be. Continue reading